THE BEGINNING

"SNEHA SID" born on 20 January 1989 .

AFTER 5 YEARS
A little girl trying to understand the world around , playing and jumping and happy  with my brother one and only sibling  Ashish 2 yrs older to me, who was even a very good friend of  mine , but wait I found more friends of my age ,but I dint knew who where they ? I had so many questions round my mind , I dint knew whom to ask .
I went up to my mother and asked , mom who are my new friends?
 where did they come from?
do they love me as Ashish does?
will they stay with me forever?
 
Mom was worried and bothered to see that her little angel  was growing up and trying to understand things around her. She indeed had all the answers to this little kid ,but was worried to know the fact that how will she react to everything that will come around her and come up to her. She wanted to explain it to her before she comes to know from somebody else , that might surprise her more and might even disturb her .
she kept looking in my eyes as she kept on thinking what to answer. She probably dint knew the right way to come up with the reality , am sure she dint wanted to hide anything from me .
she spoke up finally with a choking voice ,
" they are your brothers children".

Its really tough to decide , where do i actually start with , there's so much my heart wants to pour out , because nowadays  I feel a pain on the left side , and i remember my mother telling me when I was young that something called "HEART" is situated there . I guess its too stressed to handle anything these days .I always wanted to write down which i actually did always but I think its equal to garbage now ,with insects and dirt on them as like my memories and my past .Everything seem to be faded now but left me still struggling to find ma own inner self. 
      

3:00 am 4/7/2012 late night .an unknown person , which i can term now as friend ,AN UNKNOWN FRIEND .. actually suggested me to share my thoughts , my feelings with the world through BLOGGER . i always wanted to share ma experiences with people but never knew how to do it .but finally thanks to you my friend .